All this for nothing...

Look what I found right outside LA this weekend! SNOW! I did some playing in it, ate it, and snowshoed in it! It was weird to be in snow but not be cold...but I think it's something I could get use to.

I was just sitting here feeling sorry for myself so thought I'd write a little in hopes of getting it out of my system. Sunday nights are sometimes too long.

After a year and a half in LA I feel like I'm still missing a friend to call up randomly and do things with. I'm not sure if "adults" do that sort of thing but I really miss those sorts of connections. Perhaps LA is just too large, it could take a good 30 min drive over to someone's house if they don't live close. It's also just hard to make connections with people here, I feel like my interests are a little different (I don't follow celebrity news or watch movies as a pastime.).
It's not that I haven't tried either, I challenge myself to create social situations with at least one person every weekend, it just gets exhausting. It's tiring to tell each new person your general life story and think of interesting questions to ask them, to carry on meaningless conversation and to then do it all over again. None of my relationships for the last year and a half have become deeper, they're still surface relationships, I have yet to really let them into my entire world. I'm forced to say good bye and hello so often that things are always new and never real.

On a side note, I am off tomorrow on my first ever solo work trip. I will be running the show and calling the punches. I'm nervous, mostly that I wont know the answers to all the questions or I'll do something that will make people question my abilities to do all this on my own. I'm a people pleaser and I hate making mistakes when everyone is watching. And I know everyone is watching, not only do I have big shoes to fill I'm also quite young to be telling 50 year old men what they should do for their marketing efforts.

Wish me luck!