Signing out

This will be my last post for the summer. I head off to Skylake tomorrow and I'm still scared and nervous. I wish I were excited but I'm too busy being scared about the setting and sort of people I will work with. I seriously haven't had this sort of anxiety problem in a loong time and I'm really wondering if this is my gut warning me about something I wont enjoy.

I know last summer I was nervous and cried a lot on my way to Wisconsin, but I was also very excited about doing my own independent thing--not this summer-not at ALL.

I had to say good bye to my mom today and that was hard enough. Now I really don't want to go off to a strange place by myself.

But I'm worried cause I haven't had this lapse of confidence in a long time. I really need to find that ol'self that was ultra independent and excited about going to new places and challenging herself to get outside of her comfort zone. I know that self is still around somewhere....

Oh- I did want to give you all this link before I left. This is one of those many commencement speeches we have all been reading lately but Kingsolver is one of my favorite authors and this take is refreshing! Enjoy!

Grace